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26 September 2014 @ 05:13 am
Attempting to write and frustrating myself in the process.  
I am attempting to write a conclusion piece for Harvester of Sorrow - something that has been on my agenda for years after finishing that story - only I’m quite intimidated by it. My writing style has changed over the years, I don’t write in first person anymore and find it difficult to do so. But as the first story was written in that fashion, writing in any other style feels like it wouldn’t fit.

I wrote that story when I was a young teenager still learning to art of story telling and creative writing, so that adds to my feelings of discomfort here. My writing back then was atrocious. I don’t even enjoy reading Harvester of Sorrow for that reason. I read it now and am embarrassed by how terrible it is lol. I didn’t do a whole lot of research on the subject, reactions and actions done in that story I feel shouldn’t have been done, or at least taken in a different direction.

Now to go back to it and try to give it a conclusion is tough. I want to give that story a proper ending though, especially since everyone has been asking for it, more so now than before. I just hope I can figure out a way to do that.

It doesn’t help that I haven’t truly done any writing in years. I managed to finish Hands of Fate last year but it had taken me a couple of years just to find the inspiration for even that. The passion for writing is still there but it almost feels like I’ve lost the drive and inspiration. It’s an unsettling and frustrating feeling. :(
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Music: Birdy
Trigger Warning: Lifematchboximpala on September 27th, 2014 06:12 am (UTC)
Wait, you finished Hands of Fate? I still have that in my WIP folder. Must now go find the last chapters.....

I hope that instead of feeling great pressure to deliver, you instead just take pleasure in that so many people want more of your writing. You are great!
FadedSparksfadedsparks on September 27th, 2014 02:53 pm (UTC)
Yep, I finished posting Hands of Fate back in May actually. All chapters can be found here on my journal and at AO3.

I'm doing my best not to feel pressured but also keep myself motivated at the same time. Not exactly easy, I'll admit, but it would be nice to give everyone closure on that fic. I do take it as a compliment that people want more of my writing, I'm very flattered by it. And thank you!
Wataru Kisugi: JAByRaloria001wataru_kisugi on September 27th, 2014 01:28 pm (UTC)
I really do not want to pressure you, honest!! but I'm very glad to hear you're trying to write a conclusion story for my all time favourites Harvester of Sorrow. I've re-read them million times and always wonder what will happen to both of them... so, still do not want to pressure you, but even short, small epilogue-ish piece for this story is great pleasure to me.
But I think I'm ok if you don't write it. It's hard when your inspiration is somewhere else but you have a feeling that you want to do something...

I'm just happy to hear you're attempting to write. That's enough for me so far. :D
FadedSparksfadedsparks on September 27th, 2014 02:59 pm (UTC)
Oh no worries, I don't feel pressured by you. It's really nice to know that story is one of your favorites actually, and that you'd enjoy even a small epilogue-ish piece. Whether it will be a small epilogue or a small companion piece, is yet to be seen haha. I guess it depends on how much is left to be told.

It's all in the thought stage as of right now... writing down ideas and trying to form some kind of process, and figuring out how I want the boys' story to finish. :)

Thank you for the encouraging comment though. I hope I will have some good news regarding this fic in the near future.